People Pleasing has always been the one thing in my spiritual life that I've always struggled with. In fact if they were giving out degrees for the master of people pleasing I would be at the top of my class. I know all the right times to leave a room, I know all the right words to say, and when things turn tense I feel the need to be funny.
Wow... I'm about to do a 180 here folks...
I do believe the two posts have created a AHA moment for me. Like most of you have posted it boils down to vulnerability. A few of the comments I read really hit the nail on the head, I have a hard time letting people in. It’s easier to make a joke, or say the right things then it is to open up to people. I've been a Christian for 11 years and only a select few have been able to crack the code. Its takes someone months of hang out time, and conversations in order for me to even open up a little.
Maybe its that I don't want to expose the real me.. the side that isn't always funny and Jolly, the side that is hurting and wanting someone to care. I'm not a fan of people who are constantly "poor me" people and I wonder if that’s what I'm afraid of becoming. I don't want to be other peoples burden, someone they feel they have to take care...I WANT TO BE STRONG!
Of course the scripture does say "He who is weak is strong.." and so that right there is my AHA
I'm weak.... I'm vulnerable... I'm just me.... and God LOVES me no matter what!
Next step: A conversation with God then we'll see where it goes from there!
Much love and God Bless to you all!!
P.S. Thank you for all your comments on my last post, it was a blessing from God that the post made it to the front page, it gave me an opportunity to read about other people who are struggling with the same issue! I think I've found my new Blog home! :0)
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